After a few days into Christmas holiday i finally have to sit and blog! I been so busy with uni work that it nearly drove me crazy..Luckily, i got over it and now what is left to be done is send out my application letters, manage my portfolio and study for my exams! Omg after listing it out, it seems like i still got so much thing to be done.. Haih.. I need a holiday... A proper holiday without worries.. Maybe i have grown old over the year...As 2006 is coming to its end i just realise how much i have been through this year.. So many new things just waiting for me to discover them.. Somehow i'm worried that i might not be able to cope with it..
This year really tire me out.. Emotionally and physically.. Four boyfriends in a year.. My highest record ever! How i manage it to pull it off, still surprises me.. Compare to my current boyfriend, the last 2 were really crappy..maybe i was just fooling around.. I seems to have turn into someone else this year.. Not good though, luckily that bad habit is out of my life.. Well hopefully, definately don't want to be a girl who 'step two boat with a foot'! That was never me and will never be me.. Maybe i giving myself excuses, but being 21 seriously is very different.
Sort of like , i just entered another phrases of my life and i'm about to step out of it.. I will no longer be 21 soon, 22 is just around the corner.. another phrase i hope.. Maybe is time for me to really settle down,stop doing crazy stuff and be a amture adult. Life is weird isn't it? I'm happy right now and i hope it will always stay that way,hopefully.. Trouble is always looking for me.. I'm tired, need a good rest..
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Monday, November 13, 2006
where do i stand?
Sometimes i wonder, where do i stand? In the hearts of people around me..
I talked to my half sis on saturday and she told me that my dad just came back from Japan, brought alot of stuffs etc etc...i was like ok! good!then i went to bed i was thinking...Wait a minute...How come my dad went to Japan and i don't even know about it? hmm...fine..whatever...really..
I got so bloody used to knowing everything last...that's if i ever find out.. Am i invisible? Doesn't my existence mean something? I wonder sometimes...really really had a good thought about it...And i realise i'm just a mistake. That's it. Nothing more nothing less.
I'm so envious when i see happy children with happy parents. Parents who really care for their child. I got so envious once when my boyfriend's dad wrote him a letter(considering his parents calls him everyday!) that i cry. Tears just flow out of my eyes. I didn't even intend to cry, i just did. i feel like a fool sometimes when i talked about my 'parents' to my boyfriend. He don't understand. I don't blame him, he's so lucky that he will never understand my 'parents'.
I'm thankful,really. To my boyfriend and Jo. For always being there when i need them. That's all i need.
I talked to my half sis on saturday and she told me that my dad just came back from Japan, brought alot of stuffs etc etc...i was like ok! good!then i went to bed i was thinking...Wait a minute...How come my dad went to Japan and i don't even know about it? hmm...fine..whatever...really..
I got so bloody used to knowing everything last...that's if i ever find out.. Am i invisible? Doesn't my existence mean something? I wonder sometimes...really really had a good thought about it...And i realise i'm just a mistake. That's it. Nothing more nothing less.
I'm so envious when i see happy children with happy parents. Parents who really care for their child. I got so envious once when my boyfriend's dad wrote him a letter(considering his parents calls him everyday!) that i cry. Tears just flow out of my eyes. I didn't even intend to cry, i just did. i feel like a fool sometimes when i talked about my 'parents' to my boyfriend. He don't understand. I don't blame him, he's so lucky that he will never understand my 'parents'.
I'm thankful,really. To my boyfriend and Jo. For always being there when i need them. That's all i need.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
very very upset...
what happened to my house that once have a home feel? what have i done? why did i soften my heart?why why why??
Monday, November 06, 2006
Falling Leaves
It's autumn now in Aberdeen. The weather is cold and sulky.. I don't feel like doing anything except staying at home and do nothing..So got myself a book that i loan from han jian ages ago but never had the chance to sit down and read it.
So happened the book is titled 'falling leaves'. Just right for the season and the mood i'm in right now. As usual, i finished the book today.=P i know i'm a too fast of a reader. Right this moment, i feel my life is described in that book. The feeling of unloved, unwanted and a burden to my so-called family.
I never felt real love family. My father and mother divorced when i was really young,i think i was about a year after i was born. I was practically thrown around the family to whom ever willing to nanny me. When my mother won the lawsuit against my father for my custody, i was left a my maternal grandmother's house and my mother flew off to Japan to make her fortune. i miss my grandmother alot, she took care of me and showed me what i needed most. LOVE. But i guess i was a nuisance after a few years, my mother moved me to a permanent nanny's house in Cheras. I went to pre-school there for 3 years.
During that period of time, i had rare visit from my fourth auntie. She was the only one who was willing to drive all the way to Cheras to visit me. I really enjoyed those time where she brings me out to shop and dine. My mother visited me 3 to 4 times in that entire period and she never stayed more than a single day. As for my father, once where he came to bring me home for Chinese New Year and also to meet his new wife.
My mother then moved me to Subang Jaya, a new nanny house. I lived with her for 4 years. She's nice and everything but she's not my mother and obviously favours her sons. There's once one of her son beat me up because i couldn't draw the picture he wanted. Keep in mind he's five years younger than me. When his father came looking for him, he was shocked and just pull his son away from me. Asking if i'm ok and just gave his son a lecture. From that point onwards, i told myself never to let anyone bully me and i never did let anyone. I began to keep to myself and excel in my studies.
Maybe once in 2 years, i would take the plane by myself and goes back to my father's house. And every single time i felt left out and i really hated being there. The only consolation was my cousins was superb towards me and my aunts and uncles always invite me to their home. My stepmother sometimes even complain that i spend too much time at my relative's house and i should stay at home and do the houseworks. She often complains to my father that airfare is too expensive and he should not bring me home too much. Even if my grandfather and grandmother wanted to see me, i should just that the bus.(i wasn't even 12 that time) I was never invited to her side of family and she was deferred me away as if i'm not my father's daughter.
I stayed with my mother for the rest of my secondary school years. I wasn't happy at home. My mother is particularly demanding and often tell me that since she is making the money to support our family, she become the father figure and i have to become the mother by taking responsible of cooking meal and cleaning up the house. I even have the responsiblity of making sure all the bills are paid. Plus i had to juggled housework with schoolwork. Interesting? oh yea..
And as for my college life, i don't even want to write about it. Just whole lot of mess! Things only started to clear up on my last year of my college.I got in to university and with partial scholarship. Though things might seems smooth but i conned my way through. I had contract to fulfill. Life is so unfair isn't it??
DISAPOINTED WITH WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.END OF STORY.
So happened the book is titled 'falling leaves'. Just right for the season and the mood i'm in right now. As usual, i finished the book today.=P i know i'm a too fast of a reader. Right this moment, i feel my life is described in that book. The feeling of unloved, unwanted and a burden to my so-called family.
I never felt real love family. My father and mother divorced when i was really young,i think i was about a year after i was born. I was practically thrown around the family to whom ever willing to nanny me. When my mother won the lawsuit against my father for my custody, i was left a my maternal grandmother's house and my mother flew off to Japan to make her fortune. i miss my grandmother alot, she took care of me and showed me what i needed most. LOVE. But i guess i was a nuisance after a few years, my mother moved me to a permanent nanny's house in Cheras. I went to pre-school there for 3 years.
During that period of time, i had rare visit from my fourth auntie. She was the only one who was willing to drive all the way to Cheras to visit me. I really enjoyed those time where she brings me out to shop and dine. My mother visited me 3 to 4 times in that entire period and she never stayed more than a single day. As for my father, once where he came to bring me home for Chinese New Year and also to meet his new wife.
My mother then moved me to Subang Jaya, a new nanny house. I lived with her for 4 years. She's nice and everything but she's not my mother and obviously favours her sons. There's once one of her son beat me up because i couldn't draw the picture he wanted. Keep in mind he's five years younger than me. When his father came looking for him, he was shocked and just pull his son away from me. Asking if i'm ok and just gave his son a lecture. From that point onwards, i told myself never to let anyone bully me and i never did let anyone. I began to keep to myself and excel in my studies.
Maybe once in 2 years, i would take the plane by myself and goes back to my father's house. And every single time i felt left out and i really hated being there. The only consolation was my cousins was superb towards me and my aunts and uncles always invite me to their home. My stepmother sometimes even complain that i spend too much time at my relative's house and i should stay at home and do the houseworks. She often complains to my father that airfare is too expensive and he should not bring me home too much. Even if my grandfather and grandmother wanted to see me, i should just that the bus.(i wasn't even 12 that time) I was never invited to her side of family and she was deferred me away as if i'm not my father's daughter.
I stayed with my mother for the rest of my secondary school years. I wasn't happy at home. My mother is particularly demanding and often tell me that since she is making the money to support our family, she become the father figure and i have to become the mother by taking responsible of cooking meal and cleaning up the house. I even have the responsiblity of making sure all the bills are paid. Plus i had to juggled housework with schoolwork. Interesting? oh yea..
And as for my college life, i don't even want to write about it. Just whole lot of mess! Things only started to clear up on my last year of my college.I got in to university and with partial scholarship. Though things might seems smooth but i conned my way through. I had contract to fulfill. Life is so unfair isn't it??
DISAPOINTED WITH WHAT HAPPENED TODAY.END OF STORY.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
MSA new student welcoming party~!
I haven't been blogging for ages. Too busy and tired! My life is so mess up! Thank goodness Jo has been filling our blog with posts! If not this page would be so dead!!
The MSA@RGU organised a party for the new malaysian students. On the same night they annouce the new comittees.. I got nominated to be in the comittee and now i'm the new PR! The post totally suit me! So be ready for lots of clubbing events!! haha~! Just joking~! =P
I like this picture particularly because we were posing for another camera and another friend just took this picture!Nice right? Hehehe~
Me and Razif~!
Random pictures of everyone( i hope is everyone!=P)
The MSA@RGU organised a party for the new malaysian students. On the same night they annouce the new comittees.. I got nominated to be in the comittee and now i'm the new PR! The post totally suit me! So be ready for lots of clubbing events!! haha~! Just joking~! =P
I like this picture particularly because we were posing for another camera and another friend just took this picture!Nice right? Hehehe~
Me and Razif~!
Random pictures of everyone( i hope is everyone!=P)
Friday, October 13, 2006
ARGH!!
This is going to an angry post, so don't read unless u wanna see me swearing and complaining every single bloody things that happened this morning which is bad considering is not even afternoon yet!!!
Starting of with me getting up late and didn't realise my boyfriend have left for uni! I totally forgot to tell him to leave the house keys for me! So when i got the call for JO i was in deep shit! Thanks heavens he's ten o'clock class was canceled and he rush home to let me out of the house!So sweet..hehe!
So i rush home to change and tried to catch a bus. Damn bus driver saw me running yet drove off! i had to sit and wait at the bus stop for another 10MINS!... I know I know... ten mins isn't long. But it does feel like forever especially when u are rushing!!!!FUCK!
Right now i'm sitting in the computer room waiting for my prints to come out but is taking forever because some asshole( dunno what shit is he printing) finish off all the paper! And the the paper were blank except for some coding at the edge! I'm been waiting for nearly 20 MINS! FUCking long!!! And i'm only printing 4 sheets of A3!!! SO FUCKING PISS OFF!!!!
i wrote this post, check all my emails, wrote a complaint letter about my modules and yet my prints are not out yet! I can't believe why the FUCK that asshole is fucking printing!!! How can someone be so fucking selfish and block up the printer!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!
btw, is afternoon already! imaigine that... my printing is not out yet~!!!!
i wonder how am i going pass through today...haih..sad la...
Starting of with me getting up late and didn't realise my boyfriend have left for uni! I totally forgot to tell him to leave the house keys for me! So when i got the call for JO i was in deep shit! Thanks heavens he's ten o'clock class was canceled and he rush home to let me out of the house!So sweet..hehe!
So i rush home to change and tried to catch a bus. Damn bus driver saw me running yet drove off! i had to sit and wait at the bus stop for another 10MINS!... I know I know... ten mins isn't long. But it does feel like forever especially when u are rushing!!!!FUCK!
Right now i'm sitting in the computer room waiting for my prints to come out but is taking forever because some asshole( dunno what shit is he printing) finish off all the paper! And the the paper were blank except for some coding at the edge! I'm been waiting for nearly 20 MINS! FUCking long!!! And i'm only printing 4 sheets of A3!!! SO FUCKING PISS OFF!!!!
i wrote this post, check all my emails, wrote a complaint letter about my modules and yet my prints are not out yet! I can't believe why the FUCK that asshole is fucking printing!!! How can someone be so fucking selfish and block up the printer!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!
btw, is afternoon already! imaigine that... my printing is not out yet~!!!!
i wonder how am i going pass through today...haih..sad la...
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
new skin
i'm so bloody bored of my old skin layout, needed some change. Black is not really my colour but the butterfly on this new layout is too tempting! ^_^
After all, it is time for some changes as i had few lately. So just to justify my constant skin layout changes! =P
After all, it is time for some changes as i had few lately. So just to justify my constant skin layout changes! =P
not feeling too good...
Today started badly, i'm feeling like a bad friend. I don't know how to comfort a good friend of mine. I can be a lousy friend sometimes. Lousy character reader. How can i encourage my friend not to lose faith in guys? Guys are human who cannot be predicted.. They can sweet and caring sometimes but guys are always guys who act with their penis and not their heart.That why i'm optimis about them. A guy who don't cheat on their girlfriend or wife are impossible to find.(if u found 1, you are very lucky indeed because you must be hot and fantastic) You just have to live with them because girls can't live without them.
Heart is a very fragile thing indeed. Once broken can't never be mend. My heart was broken into a thousand pieces and till now i haven't found every single piece yet and i doubt i ever will. So my partner would just have to live with just a few pieces of my broken heart. Count yourself lucky if u can even get a single piece of my broken heart. The only reason i haven't giving up hope is because i believe there is someone out there that can mend my broken heart using his true and pure heart. As long as he is loyal to me at heart i can ask no more. Loyal to me through body is nearly impossible so i'm not asking for it.
Sometimes it can get very tiring to be fighting for every single day of your life. Fight to protect yourself and your heart is just a duty to yourself. Once u give up fighting, you give up on yourself. You are all you have so don't ever give on yourself. No matter what others might stomp on you, just remember that u are a special person. The more challenges u have in your life doesn't mean u can't beat them. Just fight those challenges with all u got. Don't ever ever ever give up on yourself.
If u ever feel so tired of fighting, just remember i'll always be there for u. There isn't much i could do but at least i can be your shield for a moment. I might a lousy friend sometimes but i'll try my best to help. And you want to know why? Because u were there for me when i was tired of fighting. You help me back to my feet by setting up the first step. And being your shield even for a very short moment is the very least i could do for you. So keep fighting even if every single thing in the world seems to be against you. I believe in you.
And i also believe true love exist. So don't ever stop looking because the moment u stop,you will never find it. You might have to bleed badly along the way but when you reach the end of the battle, it would all worth it. Don't give up.
I'm sorry i was a lousy friend but i'll always be there for u if u ever need me....
Heart is a very fragile thing indeed. Once broken can't never be mend. My heart was broken into a thousand pieces and till now i haven't found every single piece yet and i doubt i ever will. So my partner would just have to live with just a few pieces of my broken heart. Count yourself lucky if u can even get a single piece of my broken heart. The only reason i haven't giving up hope is because i believe there is someone out there that can mend my broken heart using his true and pure heart. As long as he is loyal to me at heart i can ask no more. Loyal to me through body is nearly impossible so i'm not asking for it.
Sometimes it can get very tiring to be fighting for every single day of your life. Fight to protect yourself and your heart is just a duty to yourself. Once u give up fighting, you give up on yourself. You are all you have so don't ever give on yourself. No matter what others might stomp on you, just remember that u are a special person. The more challenges u have in your life doesn't mean u can't beat them. Just fight those challenges with all u got. Don't ever ever ever give up on yourself.
If u ever feel so tired of fighting, just remember i'll always be there for u. There isn't much i could do but at least i can be your shield for a moment. I might a lousy friend sometimes but i'll try my best to help. And you want to know why? Because u were there for me when i was tired of fighting. You help me back to my feet by setting up the first step. And being your shield even for a very short moment is the very least i could do for you. So keep fighting even if every single thing in the world seems to be against you. I believe in you.
And i also believe true love exist. So don't ever stop looking because the moment u stop,you will never find it. You might have to bleed badly along the way but when you reach the end of the battle, it would all worth it. Don't give up.
I'm sorry i was a lousy friend but i'll always be there for u if u ever need me....
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
not very happy~!
Sorry people, couldn't upload the vidoes..My free wireless have its limits..haih what to do..
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Annoyed, feeling disconcerted and edgy with competitiveness *screams and stamps foot on floor*. The thing is, I know I'm not particularly good at anything, but when it comes to the dance floor...THAT'S MY TERRITORY!!! When on the floor, I feel like I can just let go, so call me wild if you want, but i couldn't give a damn.
Seriously feeling miffed, ESPECIALLY when my boyfriend told me that there's this other girl out there, who i already don't particularly like, WHO apparently charms guys with her 'cuteness' and 'innocence' (what innocence and cuteness!?!?) and can dance WIlDER!?!? than me...*Hell breaking lose*.
*considering thoughts of checking out the competition* she CAN'T dance better than me, I refuse to believe it...*shoot chris evil eye*
Oh, and to top off my day...my 'boyfriend' ditched my cooking!!! MY DELICIOUS JESSICA FAMOUS GYOZA!!! *throw pot at him*...*sniff* smells soooo good right now...definitely not saving him any...hmmp!!! =P
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Annoyed, feeling disconcerted and edgy with competitiveness *screams and stamps foot on floor*. The thing is, I know I'm not particularly good at anything, but when it comes to the dance floor...THAT'S MY TERRITORY!!! When on the floor, I feel like I can just let go, so call me wild if you want, but i couldn't give a damn.
Seriously feeling miffed, ESPECIALLY when my boyfriend told me that there's this other girl out there, who i already don't particularly like, WHO apparently charms guys with her 'cuteness' and 'innocence' (what innocence and cuteness!?!?) and can dance WIlDER!?!? than me...*Hell breaking lose*.
*considering thoughts of checking out the competition* she CAN'T dance better than me, I refuse to believe it...*shoot chris evil eye*
Oh, and to top off my day...my 'boyfriend' ditched my cooking!!! MY DELICIOUS JESSICA FAMOUS GYOZA!!! *throw pot at him*...*sniff* smells soooo good right now...definitely not saving him any...hmmp!!! =P
Saturday, October 07, 2006
A not so surprise, surprise party
Meant to blog about this yesterday since it was my boyfriend's proper birthdate but i got lazy..=P Sorry, baby~
So now i'm supposed to be working but too sick to walk straight and my baby is trying to fix up our new dining table chair. Haha~!
Right, back to the not so surprise,surprise party. Why is no longer a surprise party is because some stupid friend of his asked "Wei, how come u no invite me to your BBQ birthday tomorrow?" Another close friend of my baby,Caleb who help me to organise went "WTF, u stupid asshole!!" And he added "Haih, just pretend u dunno about the party,k? Or else your girlfriend would kill me."
LOL, u just have to have weird people or should i say stupid people who just don't know the meaning of thick face~! Luckily my boyfriend only told me this after the party was over, if not i'll punch that stupid guy! ISH~! My boyfriend was already suspecting something just that he dunno when i'm having the party and that guy have to blow it all~! Damn piss~!
Chris and me.. He's pretending to be surprise but is quite obvious he's not..=P Sorry baby.. Will organise it better next time!
The only surprise left was the other birthday boy, Christopher who knew about he party but thought it was for my boyfriend only. Well at least there were some surprise, better than none.The birthday boys.. both Chris and early Oct babies plus taking the same course.LOL! The only difference is Chris is 22 and Christopher is 21.
Nice smashes on the face!
This is Ah Soong with the beers in the bucket before the birthday boys comes back.
And the guys getting the BBQ ready. Smoke all over. I was being lazy and resting in Chris's room and Jo took this photo.. Hehe!
The birthday boys with their funny birthday present of suspenders. They had to several task before opening their present and it was really fun watching them doing the task. HEHE~!
And of coz proper presents, i got Chris a jacket and Jo got Christopher a squishy pillow. Nice, right?
i'll try to upload the vidoes later..So wait for my next post!
And Happy Birthday,baby and Christopher! Hope to enjoy the party~!
So now i'm supposed to be working but too sick to walk straight and my baby is trying to fix up our new dining table chair. Haha~!
Right, back to the not so surprise,surprise party. Why is no longer a surprise party is because some stupid friend of his asked "Wei, how come u no invite me to your BBQ birthday tomorrow?" Another close friend of my baby,Caleb who help me to organise went "WTF, u stupid asshole!!" And he added "Haih, just pretend u dunno about the party,k? Or else your girlfriend would kill me."
LOL, u just have to have weird people or should i say stupid people who just don't know the meaning of thick face~! Luckily my boyfriend only told me this after the party was over, if not i'll punch that stupid guy! ISH~! My boyfriend was already suspecting something just that he dunno when i'm having the party and that guy have to blow it all~! Damn piss~!
Chris and me.. He's pretending to be surprise but is quite obvious he's not..=P Sorry baby.. Will organise it better next time!
The only surprise left was the other birthday boy, Christopher who knew about he party but thought it was for my boyfriend only. Well at least there were some surprise, better than none.The birthday boys.. both Chris and early Oct babies plus taking the same course.LOL! The only difference is Chris is 22 and Christopher is 21.
Nice smashes on the face!
This is Ah Soong with the beers in the bucket before the birthday boys comes back.
And the guys getting the BBQ ready. Smoke all over. I was being lazy and resting in Chris's room and Jo took this photo.. Hehe!
The birthday boys with their funny birthday present of suspenders. They had to several task before opening their present and it was really fun watching them doing the task. HEHE~!
And of coz proper presents, i got Chris a jacket and Jo got Christopher a squishy pillow. Nice, right?
i'll try to upload the vidoes later..So wait for my next post!
And Happy Birthday,baby and Christopher! Hope to enjoy the party~!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
uni started and i feel stupid~!
Class was spacey for me today.. totally ah beng's fault for telling me the class start at 9am when i saw it on the time table was 11am. So i woke up at 7.30am in case! Stupid me~! and it was nearly impossible to drag myself out of bed! i ussually sleep till 2pm and today i got up at 7.30am! So u can imaigine how spacey and blur i was. It doesn't with my non morning person attitude!I even did a very stupid thing! Call ah beng on my phone and thought he was Chris and call him baby! Nuts! I got so use to Chris's number being the first on the list that i just press without looking! ISH! And i already have course work to do! ARGH~! not helping with new groupmates who i have no idea what can they do! Feel so ridiculous explaining to them what to do and this and that~! I feel i'm in the wrong class~!
If u wondering who Chris is, he's the cute guy i met at the Merdeka Party! hehe~! I know, i know.. I had hots for him since like April or May! So is understandable! So u guys are gonna get lucky today coz i'm gonna post up his pic! =P
He's cute right? Cuter than me~! So jealous~! Haha...=P
If u wondering who Chris is, he's the cute guy i met at the Merdeka Party! hehe~! I know, i know.. I had hots for him since like April or May! So is understandable! So u guys are gonna get lucky today coz i'm gonna post up his pic! =P
He's cute right? Cuter than me~! So jealous~! Haha...=P
Saturday, September 23, 2006
argh!
I have no idea what's wrong with my pics! they are gigantic even after i resize them at photobucket! totally messing up my background! trying to figure out what's wrong! But i'm wondering issit me or u guys can view it fine?
Anyway uni is starting next week and i'm feeling so lazy and brain rusty! This happens when u have 4 months of holiday~! This includes a little of self depression and i have no idea why! I was all excited about it last week and this week it seems i wish my holiday never end! So typical of me isn't it? mood changes like the weather!
And about why i was happy... i finally met up with the cute guy i was talking about for ages that studies in AU! Wow he's much cuter in person! haha! Too bad i dun have a picture of him. Shall post it up when i got it! =P
Anyway uni is starting next week and i'm feeling so lazy and brain rusty! This happens when u have 4 months of holiday~! This includes a little of self depression and i have no idea why! I was all excited about it last week and this week it seems i wish my holiday never end! So typical of me isn't it? mood changes like the weather!
And about why i was happy... i finally met up with the cute guy i was talking about for ages that studies in AU! Wow he's much cuter in person! haha! Too bad i dun have a picture of him. Shall post it up when i got it! =P
Friday, September 22, 2006
merdeka party~!
I got back to Aberdeen on Merdeka's Day. And after a few hours of sleep, I'm out partying! I know I'm crazy, I'm suppose to be extra tired after 13 hours of bus ride.
But how can I miss the party! After I'm patriotic! ( yea, right~!=P)The party was great if there were more student than working adults!;P I'm mean! haha~! Sorry ning nong bell, u are not included. U are fun to hang out with,ok? I meant the boring working adults that kept to themselves and refuse to mingle with us kids!
Me and winnie being cute with the flag~! =P so bad right~! ( actually i was using it to cover my bloated tummy coz i ate too much! haha)
Group photos with more flags! =P
Me,Jessie and winnie posing! i know we are poser and photo whore but we just can't help it! haha~!
Posers~! hehe~!
Afterwards, we went clubbing though it was more like club hunting! haha~! we finally settle down at charliez after like 3-4 fail clubs! I felt great that night! was extremely happy so i drank a little too much and got myself in the state between tipsy and drunk! Dance like crazy and hangover the next day~! typical of the old indepedent me~! Wanna know why i'm so happy? That u will have to wait for my next post~!hehe~!
But how can I miss the party! After I'm patriotic! ( yea, right~!=P)The party was great if there were more student than working adults!;P I'm mean! haha~! Sorry ning nong bell, u are not included. U are fun to hang out with,ok? I meant the boring working adults that kept to themselves and refuse to mingle with us kids!
Me and winnie being cute with the flag~! =P so bad right~! ( actually i was using it to cover my bloated tummy coz i ate too much! haha)
Group photos with more flags! =P
Me,Jessie and winnie posing! i know we are poser and photo whore but we just can't help it! haha~!
Posers~! hehe~!
Afterwards, we went clubbing though it was more like club hunting! haha~! we finally settle down at charliez after like 3-4 fail clubs! I felt great that night! was extremely happy so i drank a little too much and got myself in the state between tipsy and drunk! Dance like crazy and hangover the next day~! typical of the old indepedent me~! Wanna know why i'm so happy? That u will have to wait for my next post~!hehe~!
london trip~!!
right...sorry everyone that i haven't update my blog for ages...i finally got over my writer's block..dun ask damn long story.. and i'm not particularly fond of talking about it..
Right, my holiday trip down to london was fantastic! Not only i met a nice guy to date, i had lotsa fun visiting around!! First stop was Chinatown, i feel so at home there! i miss chinese food so much! And i had a great dim sum meal! love the egg tart but i was too busy eating to take any pictures! so..too bad..hahaha~!
Trafalgar Square~!Gigantic lion statues and water fountains~! Btw, the weather was perfect!!!
The famous london eye! I wanted to ride it but the line was impossible! bloody long!! Just couldn't be bother to do it!
This is london aquarium if i'm not mistaken~! =P From outside u can see people doing the hooked bungee! looks fun but i didn't went in..haha~!
Another view of london eye from Jubilee Bridge~!
Tate Musuem, i think the owner is probably relate to my step father~! haha...just kidding~!
St Paul Cathederal across the thames river~!
And of coz the buckingham palace! i didn't go to pricess diana memorial though because it started raining heavily! =(
And the best story for the last! the guy i was dating when i was down in london! I met him over the internet before i went down to london. He's a nice guy and i like nice guys! ( who doesn't!=P)He's a hong kie mixed black guy which cool~~
he brought me around london too.. We took this picture at Camden~! They sell weird stuff at Camden.. u can find army prints clothing to thai style interior decoration! I like Camden alot~ good shopping place~! hahaha~!
Well things didn't work out with him.. I just can't do LDR( for u guys who dunno my term, is Long Distance Relationship)...I'm sorry, Sin Fung. But i'm glad i met u! take care~
Right, my holiday trip down to london was fantastic! Not only i met a nice guy to date, i had lotsa fun visiting around!! First stop was Chinatown, i feel so at home there! i miss chinese food so much! And i had a great dim sum meal! love the egg tart but i was too busy eating to take any pictures! so..too bad..hahaha~!
Trafalgar Square~!Gigantic lion statues and water fountains~! Btw, the weather was perfect!!!
The famous london eye! I wanted to ride it but the line was impossible! bloody long!! Just couldn't be bother to do it!
This is london aquarium if i'm not mistaken~! =P From outside u can see people doing the hooked bungee! looks fun but i didn't went in..haha~!
Another view of london eye from Jubilee Bridge~!
Tate Musuem, i think the owner is probably relate to my step father~! haha...just kidding~!
St Paul Cathederal across the thames river~!
And of coz the buckingham palace! i didn't go to pricess diana memorial though because it started raining heavily! =(
And the best story for the last! the guy i was dating when i was down in london! I met him over the internet before i went down to london. He's a nice guy and i like nice guys! ( who doesn't!=P)He's a hong kie mixed black guy which cool~~
he brought me around london too.. We took this picture at Camden~! They sell weird stuff at Camden.. u can find army prints clothing to thai style interior decoration! I like Camden alot~ good shopping place~! hahaha~!
Well things didn't work out with him.. I just can't do LDR( for u guys who dunno my term, is Long Distance Relationship)...I'm sorry, Sin Fung. But i'm glad i met u! take care~
Thursday, August 24, 2006
my little lily~~
i'm down at london now...hanging out with my friends...doing nothing really...haven't done any sight seeing...shall do that tomorrow if i can... my sleeping time is so fucking mess up...so much for staying up all night before taking my train down...MAinly because i'm afraid i'll miss the train ride at 6am... and i didn't go to bed till the next day 2am.. so now i'm sleeping during the day and waking up in the evening...
anyway... i was at hull meeting up with my stepfather and his family.. It was William's birthday..here's some pictures...
Little Lily and Agnes...Aren't they so cute??Little gems~
Anyway... i miss my plants....So worried that beng wouldn't be taking care of them...
hope my lilies are still this when i get home~~
anyway... i was at hull meeting up with my stepfather and his family.. It was William's birthday..here's some pictures...
Little Lily and Agnes...Aren't they so cute??Little gems~
Anyway... i miss my plants....So worried that beng wouldn't be taking care of them...
hope my lilies are still this when i get home~~
Sunday, August 20, 2006
"What Does Love Mean?"
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of four through eight year olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:
"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love."
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."
"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don’t yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."
"Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired."
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
"Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you’re scared they won’t love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more."
"There are two kinds of love: Our love and God’s love. But God makes both kinds of them."
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore."
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."
"Love cards like Valentine’s cards say stuff on them that we’d like to say ourselves, but we wouldn’t be caught dead saying."
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you"
"You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
"God could have said magic words to make the nails fall off the cross, but He didn’t. That’s love."
"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love."
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."
"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."
"Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don’t yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings."
"Love is what makes you smile when you’re tired."
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
"Love is what’s in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you’re scared they won’t love you anymore. But then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more."
"There are two kinds of love: Our love and God’s love. But God makes both kinds of them."
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn’t scared anymore."
"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don’t see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
"Love is when mommy gives daddy the best piece of chicken."
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
"I let my big sister pick on me because my Mom says she only picks on me because she loves me. So I pick on my baby sister because I love her."
"Love cards like Valentine’s cards say stuff on them that we’d like to say ourselves, but we wouldn’t be caught dead saying."
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you"
"You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
"God could have said magic words to make the nails fall off the cross, but He didn’t. That’s love."
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Soul searching~
I have decided to take a break and do some soul searching... Been lost for the past few months. Angry at all sort of things.. Doing crazy stuffs, getting myself into trouble and depressed...How crazy past few months have been..I can hardly believe it happened...
Been feeling lonely lately... Joey can't talk much coz she got a surgery.. So far she is the only person that can really understand what I am going through. Unable to talk to her sort of make me...Well...Blind. Not exactly blind just no one to turn to.. Especially after that incident.. Definitely leave a scar in me..
Also I realized, I need to rely on myself instead of others. Been spoiled in the past few years.. Have to find that tough girl back. So long ago it seem till I forgotten how to be one. LOL..All the sudden I miss being my old self. How I manage to live at that time always amazed myself. Leaving home and hard really hard time and somehow I manage to get through to it. Lessons of life are always so unpredictable!
So took 10 days break from work...Going traveling.. See my step father and grandfather at hull. Then going to London.. Hope to find my soul on the trip...Wish me lotsa luck!!
Been feeling lonely lately... Joey can't talk much coz she got a surgery.. So far she is the only person that can really understand what I am going through. Unable to talk to her sort of make me...Well...Blind. Not exactly blind just no one to turn to.. Especially after that incident.. Definitely leave a scar in me..
Also I realized, I need to rely on myself instead of others. Been spoiled in the past few years.. Have to find that tough girl back. So long ago it seem till I forgotten how to be one. LOL..All the sudden I miss being my old self. How I manage to live at that time always amazed myself. Leaving home and hard really hard time and somehow I manage to get through to it. Lessons of life are always so unpredictable!
So took 10 days break from work...Going traveling.. See my step father and grandfather at hull. Then going to London.. Hope to find my soul on the trip...Wish me lotsa luck!!
Friday, August 18, 2006
random opinion
nacho libre sux! stupid movie! wasted my money! damn piss!! the guy is a bloody joke himself telling not funny jokes....ish...argh!!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
dreaming....
Do u have a dream when u were young?
I used to dream a lot when I was I a small girl. How will I be when I grow up? I used to dream that I will be a princess living in a huge castle with lotsa servants to attend to me. A big big garden with my favourite flowers planted in nice traditional English gardens. And I will spend hours and hours in the garden, drinking tea and enjoy the smell of lavender.
I will be wearing big and nice gowns.You know those gowns that is big and fluffy! LOL! And always have a feast on the table. Filled with my favourite food such as sashimi, ramen, lotsa cheese topping of pizza and of course a giant turkey in the middle!
When u are dreaming to be a princess there is always a Prince Charming. The usual tall,dark and handsome. He will sweep me off my feet with his charm and gentle manners. Haha….
Come to think of it, I probably read too much fairytales. Life is never that perfect and always end with happy ending.
So when I got slightly older, my dreams become more practical and not so far fetched though still far from what I’m doing now.
So now is TV influence, I dream of becoming a famous person. Not sure it was singer or actress but just someone famous. There was a period of time I really wanted to be a famous astronaut! I got so serious about it that I ask my dad what should I study after high school and stuff! Lol luckily that never happened to be long! Probably I should be a really smart ass to do that. And also physically fit which I’m definitely NOT!!
As for now I just have a simple normal dream to achieve. To finish my studies, get a job and hopefully everyday of my life would be like this>>>>
Still a bit far fetched don't u think?
I used to dream a lot when I was I a small girl. How will I be when I grow up? I used to dream that I will be a princess living in a huge castle with lotsa servants to attend to me. A big big garden with my favourite flowers planted in nice traditional English gardens. And I will spend hours and hours in the garden, drinking tea and enjoy the smell of lavender.
I will be wearing big and nice gowns.You know those gowns that is big and fluffy! LOL! And always have a feast on the table. Filled with my favourite food such as sashimi, ramen, lotsa cheese topping of pizza and of course a giant turkey in the middle!
When u are dreaming to be a princess there is always a Prince Charming. The usual tall,dark and handsome. He will sweep me off my feet with his charm and gentle manners. Haha….
Come to think of it, I probably read too much fairytales. Life is never that perfect and always end with happy ending.
So when I got slightly older, my dreams become more practical and not so far fetched though still far from what I’m doing now.
So now is TV influence, I dream of becoming a famous person. Not sure it was singer or actress but just someone famous. There was a period of time I really wanted to be a famous astronaut! I got so serious about it that I ask my dad what should I study after high school and stuff! Lol luckily that never happened to be long! Probably I should be a really smart ass to do that. And also physically fit which I’m definitely NOT!!
As for now I just have a simple normal dream to achieve. To finish my studies, get a job and hopefully everyday of my life would be like this>>>>
Still a bit far fetched don't u think?
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
last week's achivement!
I have no idea what wrong with blogger or my connection last week but i couldn't log in to blog at all~! So piss!! Anyway here's the update....
23th july
Had steamboat at my boss's house! Lotsa food~! The whole table was packed!!!
Look at Han Jian and Ah Beng's face! They can't wait to eat!!!
29th july
We were at my boss's house again to have lunch and after lunch we went to pick strawberries!!!Yum Yum!
30th july
Baked TWO raspberry and strawberry sponge cake~!It yummy~!!!
31th july
The strawberries we pick was going bad and there's too much to finish so i made them into jam!
And bake some chocolate chip cookies!
5th August
Tartan day in aberdeen! Lotsa men in kilts playing bagpipes! they close the main street for this parade!
today~!
i went to the strawberries farm again! can't stay away! with the summer nearly gone i'll have to wait till next year to pick my own strawberries!
23th july
Had steamboat at my boss's house! Lotsa food~! The whole table was packed!!!
Look at Han Jian and Ah Beng's face! They can't wait to eat!!!
29th july
We were at my boss's house again to have lunch and after lunch we went to pick strawberries!!!Yum Yum!
30th july
Baked TWO raspberry and strawberry sponge cake~!It yummy~!!!
31th july
The strawberries we pick was going bad and there's too much to finish so i made them into jam!
And bake some chocolate chip cookies!
5th August
Tartan day in aberdeen! Lotsa men in kilts playing bagpipes! they close the main street for this parade!
today~!
i went to the strawberries farm again! can't stay away! with the summer nearly gone i'll have to wait till next year to pick my own strawberries!
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
glasgow trip..
Woke up by the alarm at 5.15 am. Why to myself why did i get up so blooddy early? Then i remember that i'm going to Glasgow for a day shopping trip. Got on to the bus at 6.30 and went back to sleep.
Woke up when I reach Glasgow around 10 am. I love the Summer Sale! Everything is so cheap especially winter wear. I'm not going to spend any money for summer wear because i brought a whole of clothes from malaysia.
Love the columns, make me feel like i'm in Rome! haha~
Gigantic metal peacock! haha...
The glasgow trip gang!Roy's not in the picture because he took this photo..=P
Funny looking clock~!
My shopping spree! Love the boots! original price was 95 pound and i got it for 10 pound! So more is nine west! Best deal ever! I know i went to glasgow yesterday but i actually finish one of the book already! =P fast reader can't help it! 2 headband from Topshop for only 1 pound!!! The beanie chair is a bit pricey but is not a seasonal item so no bargain there...Got the candle because i love the holder. Only 95 pence! haha~!
That's all for now...Didn't took much nice picture...was too busy shopping! haha~
Woke up when I reach Glasgow around 10 am. I love the Summer Sale! Everything is so cheap especially winter wear. I'm not going to spend any money for summer wear because i brought a whole of clothes from malaysia.
Love the columns, make me feel like i'm in Rome! haha~
Gigantic metal peacock! haha...
The glasgow trip gang!Roy's not in the picture because he took this photo..=P
Funny looking clock~!
My shopping spree! Love the boots! original price was 95 pound and i got it for 10 pound! So more is nine west! Best deal ever! I know i went to glasgow yesterday but i actually finish one of the book already! =P fast reader can't help it! 2 headband from Topshop for only 1 pound!!! The beanie chair is a bit pricey but is not a seasonal item so no bargain there...Got the candle because i love the holder. Only 95 pence! haha~!
That's all for now...Didn't took much nice picture...was too busy shopping! haha~
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