shine....

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow,

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you...

story of love...

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help. Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, "Richness, can you take me with you?" Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you." Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat." Vanity answered Sadness was close by so Love asked for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh....Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!" Happiness passed by Love too, but he was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her! Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder his name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went his own way. Love realizing how much he owed the elder and asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who helped me?" "It was Time," Knowledge answered. "Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because, only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

something new....

i'm sure all of you have heard of the game manjong.. well manjong never came into my vocab until recently. You see, my bf family plays manjong~ and when u sit down next to them and u will start to wonder, is so difficult to understand( i mean for banana like me). so whenever they start playing manjong, i'll start whinning to my bf, making him explain every single things....u know like why throw this and that..blah blah...u get the picture... very soon he got bored of me disturbing him whenever the game is on.So he and his best buddy, Sam take the roles of tutor and taught me how to play manjong. Boy, i tell u...i probably make them so annoyed that they have to write down each chinese character and its meaning on a piece of paper so that i remember what are they for...haha...you should see their faces....is so funny!
so after a few lesson, i can play on my own now...without any help or the piece of paper fill with chinese character. come to think of it, it seems like chor tai ti or poker....just more things to arrange...haha~
thought i never win the overall rounds, i'm glad i still can manage a few rounds coz my 2 sifu are much better than me...hahaha! before this i used to wonder how can ppl be addicted to manjong for hours....now i know perfectly well....haha....the game is so interesting, challenging and always a moment of trill....totally enjoyed the feel....
so any of u guys wanna play manjong with me?? dun bully me though...i'm still a newbie~!

disappear....

it seems like ages since my last post....been so busy i dun even have time for enuff sleep that is needed! final sem start last month, moving house early this month, bali trip last week and all the workload....i'm surpise that i'm still not overlystressed.haha....probably will in a few more weeks when all the work are due...

after all the busy month, i finally got my break last week. and i gotta go to Bali~! shopping heaven~i got so much things! spend all the rupiah i change...surpisingly i only got like 5 things for myself...most of the stuff i bought was for others...haih...wat a waste....must go there again! can't for another chance to be there~i gotta to spend 6 days there...so fun! ok i'm not rich...the food and accomodation there is dirt cheap! i'm serious! is cheaper than the airfare! all 6 days plus together! great right? u can become millionaire there~i meet a few French at the bar and they told me they been there for 2 weeks! how i wish i could have stayed longer...but the cash i brought was running out and i didn't bring any credit card or atm card...so no choice...haih...visit quite a few places and it was magnificient! the style of architecture is so unique and special...some of their temple roof looks like hair! well is not lar is actually some kind of dry weeds...some of their building are at the wierdest place~ places u never imaigine to build a temple..hard to explained~ better showed on pictures....but right now i'm too lazy to upload to photobucket,so next time..or just go to my friendster to have a look.

finally settle down this week, typing my 1st blog on my new laptop, in my new house, drinking water from a new cup! hahaha....ok the last bit is a lie~:P i like my new place except for the staircase....bloody weird....i slip once on it....ish...stupid architect who design it....looks nice but not practical..and also the traffic jam i have to go through in the morning to go to college....omg...i could have nicely spend that period of time for another half an hour sleep...sometimes i really wonder how a five mins distance can turn to 30-40 mins...haih...worse part is i been late for morning classes ever since...i never like being late...

ok i'm tired d..nitez

more pics!!!

hey!!
i found more pics to post!!

this is Dynamitez finale!

this is Valkyries's finale!!

Xavier

Shirtliff

Titans

Sellors

Cheer 2005

Last Saturday and Sunday was great! It was the national cheerleading competition! And my ex-team make it to the top 15 on the premilinary round! i can't wait for tomorrow when the final results are out!!!
anyway the top 3 teams that won was great! For the 1st time in msia cheer history not a single team from CBN or SBU got the top 3! i'm so happy that other teams manage to break their domination! Dynamitez was great they deserved to win! very steady in stunts and famous for ther low, deep voice!i didn't mange to get their pic will try to find later!

Blitzerz was fantastic and they got 1st runner up! they lost to Vulcanz All Boys for Best Newcomer last year and this year they beat them back!

the boys was great but if they manage to make more coordinated, they would win!i would say their routine was good but lacks of team cooperation.

my ex-team didn't make an impact after my batch left untill this year! when Jien mentioned VALKYRIES, i was like yea!!!jumping up and down!!!they had a fall on Sat and still make it to top 15 and on Sun they were superb!!! perfect routine! well except for the flashcard being upside down.. other than that it was great!! the basket toss was high, the bow and arrow was steady! everything was fantastic!

taking a photo before performance!

after performance!!

working my holidays off...

i been away for the whole month of June.Did anyone miss me?? Guess where haven i been? i went back to JB and work as an architect trainee! IS one of the coolest experience i got! i get to attend construction meetings, visit site, improve my AutoCaD skills, and most of all meeting a great bunch of ppl! Before going there, i had the worst imagination and might happened to me~ i thought i would be treated like a coffee girl or photostat machine girl! haha!
The ppl are so cool~ my mentor even allows me to choose tiles and did some designing for his upcoming project! i mean like "WOW" he actually let me make all the decision for the flooring!
*for those who are not doing architecture- flooring are very important for internal spaces especially in houses because it bring out the meaning and concept of your design-u dun expect white walls to express much*
My mentor is also very forgiving i would say....haha! i did plenty of mistake in drawings yet he never scolded me instead he say is not my fualt because i don't know is wrong! he's super nice! imagine doing things wrongs and not get scolded!
one of my visit was to the model maker's office! i would say 'FUIYO!' their work is super neat and they actually paint all the wall with real paint! and the detail of the window and door...i tell u if my model was half that neat i'll be getting 'A's all the way!!!they even thought me a few trick to make sure my model looks real! So watch for my next project!! i shall implement what i've learn! muahahahaha!

Keys to My Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.(who doesn't?)

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.(that very true!!i get bored easily)

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.(are i?)

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.(er...not really...is rather someone emotionless.)

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.(definately!)

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.(i'm a decent girl of coz i dun cheat!)

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.( not really...marriage is just a bond by law, most important is the relationship)

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.( i already got my love!)

go try it out...http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

presentation day~

finish my work yesterday at 6.30 pm, went to Win's to print it. then the nightmares begin! the pc cannot read my thumbdrive!and the whole pc shut down while bryan's board was printing!omg!! lucky it continue print after the pc restart. i have to go home and burn the file into a CD. and rush back be4 Win's close!reach home connect my thumbdrive to my pc, fuck!!files corrupted!! have to reformat my thumbdrive!!@@@!! all my work was down the drain!!*tears flowing out* called Win's to tell them their pc got prob but instead they say my thumbdrive got prob!!wtf!!
after dinner, sat down and redo my work all over again till 12 something...went to bed bout 1 something...got up at 5.30 am, rushing to college to print my presentation board, then i realise i forgot my model!!! how the fuck can i forget to bring my model on its presentation!!begged azree to help me print my boards, rushed back home and reach back to college just in time!! phew....turn starts to fell into place and i finally got to relaxed a little..

my turn was later so i went browsing around looking at others work!i didn't manage to get everyone pic...coz some haven't completed their boards.
1st person of coz mr. jun keat, our class rep, famous for his neat and impressive work!


next! mr. ramesh aka thegreatrash with his black and white boards!


miss bianca wearing a pink shirt to match her pink and black boards!


mr. bryan with his boards that was slightly mess up by me but very neat and simple! =p sorry...*sob *sob i didn't mean to stop ur printing halfway...


miss mei yeen! i love her design!!very special!


next up is choon how aka frus! when i took the pic i ask him to stand closer to his board but he dunwan....coz he would be blocking his nice 3D floor plans! haha!i know is very nice!! jealous!! haha!


i love han jian's presentation board! so neat and nice toning!! i took quite a few of his 3D sectional diagramme that is superb but then i'm too lazy to upload it..haha!


arzee's board are very different and special because of the colour he have chosen and it blends very nicely!


last but not least...my very own work! i took a bold move and use and abstract art as my background...got bored of black and white! hehe!!


another pic with me in it!


after presentation, i went photo taking phrase! haha!! is a rare thing in our class to have everyone dressing up formal! ussually we would be in jeans and t-shirt. =p i'm too lazy to upload the photos twice...u can check it out at my friendster. after lunch at kim gary i reach home very tired and took a nap. It was the nicest, most comfortable nap i had since ages ago!!

meaning of my name

having nothing better alse to do in the middle of the night i googled meaning of names...
is rather interesting and surprising..

Jessica
Wealthy one, he beholds : Hebrew


You are charming, talented and have a very positive attitude to life so it is hardly surprising that you attract success and recognition. Focussed and patient you understand that material rewards are a result of discipline. Being so creative and with a need for self-expression you may be drawn towards the arts, travel is also likely to be important. A loyal friend, you are a person who must be allowed freedom and independence.

next my chinese name..

Jing sze

You are responsible, determined and tenacious with sound judgement and the ability to inspire others making you ideal for positions of leadership. Having broad vision you are happy to accept the challenge of handling large projects which others may find too demanding. With your keen intuition and inventive mind you are always seeking answers. Fair and just you have a warm and compassionate nature which attracts many friends.

and my family name...

Wang
Kingly : Chinese


Sensitive and emotional you are highly intuitive and have a wonderful imagination. The instinctive impressions which you receive about people and situations are usually accurate and mean that you can rarely be misled. You have healing and counselling abilities which can help to alleviate the suffering of others. Your loyalty, integrity and belief in life means that you are much admired and assured of many friends.

all meaning are from http://www.bostonuk.com/names/default.asp

i'm really surpise part of the meaning is exatly the same with the characteristic test i took sometime ago...so what do u all think? does the meaning of my name suit the real me??

my precious model!!

my studio for this semester requires me to do a fashion designer studio at downtown KL...the farking site is long and narrow which irritates me! well anyway...the model took me two weeks to do it..

this is the elevation..love the front curving part!

this is the front elevation...is a bit boring because i have to pay respect to the context...haih

very interesting perspective! but i can't draw it...too lazy! hahaha!

this stair is the killer!!! took me 4 hours to do it!! after countless mistake and experiment!

i love montage! can see how my building fits into the context!
hopefully i'll get a better grade with this model! =p

i dunno wat i know anymore...

i used to think i knew my friends well enough... to be friends...recently i doubt so...not to blame anyone but am i the problem? i have i become ignorant? maybe cocky? or not understanding enough?? can someone tell me??
i dunno wat had happened between us... i miss those time that we had all the fun and diffculty TOGETHER! wat happened to those days? i hope we can fixed up our relationship and be best friends like last time~
i didn't mean to get upset...i dunno why i got upset..probably i'm too sensitive~ or maybe i'm just a stubborn head...haha...
maybe we should spend sometimes together,have a drink or shop around...we haven't do that a long time...partly my fault..been so busy with my work...my assignments and projects plus exams...i so stress out...probably that's why i'm over sensitive~

i stayed away from the computer for a few days because i read something very upsetting on tilia's blog. i even wander myself to write this post...i try to hold it in but i can't hold it in anymore...

i couldn't understand why must there be conflict? y must they doubt each others?i just plainly dun get it!!!

i know very well that tilia did her best to keep the team spirited and together.and i appreciate everything she did for the team...even though sometimes she was harsh but i know she meant well...

as for farid and justin pulling out the team...seriously i can understand that study matters and exams are important...but i can't accept the fact they promise to join the competition knowing very well in stuck right in the middle and quit after we register for the competition.

Second time! is second time we register for a competition and then quit it! wat a joke! come to think of it, the main reason we change the team name from Taurens to Aegles was because the 'bad reputation' Taurens had....now it turns out Aegles are not much of a different...hahaha..wat's the point!!??

but still...the thing that upset me most ain't tilia nor faird's posts....is was cynthia's post....i read her post repeatly to make sure i didn't misunderstand her words...the more i read the more upset is become...how can she humilate the team by saying all those words! she was the first person who gave up on the team! the phrase 'since no one feels it's an honour to be in a team' hurts me the most....she might not know others very well, and maybe others doesn't feel so....but she know me very well...she knows how much i love cheerleading! how could she say i don't feel it's an honour to be on team...i'm very depressed,upset and dissapointted...

thinking of it makes me feel like a thousand needle is poking through my heart...i'm going off...maybe today's cheerleading practise would make me feel better..

mother's day....

i hate it when is mother's day...i have dig a big hole in my posket to get my mom something nice...so that she would stop nagging me bout not being a good enuff compare to all the 'sam ku 6 po' children... ok fine since this once a year thing...i make the best effort to get her something to show my appreciation!having in mind there's b'day & christmas present yet to come...so i drag myself to get my bf to fetch me to buy something...so guess what i got her? flower? no...she will say waste of money! earring? no..she will say she got more than enuff and they are more expensive! makeup? hell no!like i can even effort the makeup brands she use....sp i end up getting a comb! u guys must be thinking wat a cheapskate i am...hahaha...well guess what..u are dead wrong! the fucking comb costed me rm65.90!!!wanna know why? here's the pic...

1st of all is made from bull's horn
2nd it help blood circulation
3rd it smoother ur hair..can save on conditioner..perfect for my mom coz her hair reaches her butt!
4th the end of the comb can use as finger massager..
5th is cold therefore help to awaken a sleep head
6th i dunno wat else to get her! hahaha!
so do u guys think is worth more than 60 over bucks??

new skin~

i haven't been posting at all...been really busy with my project! and even i come online i would just update my blogskin! hahaha! so how do u guys like my new skin? i find it very nice at first but now is kinda too nice~ hahaha~somehow i more i edit on it the more complex it become. leave me some ideas to improvise ya~

anyway i feel like shit now becoz of my flu! i hate having flu! who like it anyway....blah! and i miss cheerleading practise! ish...the only time i can have fun by flying high,move around and get a few bruise! and i miss it becoz of my stupid flu! argh! and i'm kinda fed up! why the hell everytime there is a cheer competition, we have exams causing us not been able to compete! headache...

blogs...

i don't remember when was it i got hooked on to writing blogs..haha...probably most of my friends are writing blogs and is so interesting to read them! But the credit must be given to ken . Anyway i used to blog on friendster but can't stand its server. Is fucking slow and i have to wait for it to load like ages! that i decided to sign up here.hope is much better~
i'll be pasting my previous blogs here once i figure how! shall wait for my sifu to come online~

flasher!!!

I fucking piss with the malaysian police! they are so lousy! bout march last year i made a police report against a flasher! they did nothing! then wat happened today seriously piss me off! the farking flasher came into my house compound and pull out my curtain and started flashing! i was like wat the fuck! and started screaming that i'll call the police! then he run away!! that like fucking insulting! and is the same fucking flasher from last year!!
last year was at the street and today he came into my house compound! he's becoming more and more daring! wat if next time he rape some girl? wat the fuck is the police? NOTHING! i even gave them his car plate no.! somore he drove the same fucking car! i seriously dun get it! at least find him and send him to the balai! but the stupid police arent doing anything!!!
wat the hell!

sometime ago...

a few weeks ago i went to simple plan concert! i didn't had the chance to blog bout it coz the pic was with steph...so here it is...

i know i look horrible! but that's taken after waiting in the rain for 3 hours!

but is all worth it!!!

they rock totallly!!!

i was jumping up and down like crazy! i think i lost a few kgs!

the concert end with a everlasting moment!
i really enjoy the concert though is sucky to wait under the rain! hopefully next time i go concert there's no rain!

forgetful ppl...

how can a person be so forgetful??? even after i reminder them like few hours ago...knowing that is important how can they forget?? i'm really frustrated by this kind of attitude....and all the stupid reasons....omg..as if i dun my own things to do lar....becoz of their forgetfulness, i have unecessary trouble...my sleeping time cut down and i have to stay up later than expected just to complete the work becoz of their flaws...just becoz they got other work to do... can't they learn time management??? knowing very well the due date for this project is dues sooner than other work....haih...i hate being the group leader...next time if that stupid lecturer wans me to be leader...hekkk...hell man!! y some leader so lucky and i'm not???
ish ish ish...so frustrating these...with all the projects and assignment submission coming up i'm going to be crazy!!!! plus the all the finals exams!!! omg the most exams ever since i join college!!! argh!!!! piss piss piss!!!stress stress stress!!!
someone please help me!!

FOOD!

i dunno wat have gotten into me tonight...i ate like a pig!! came back fr the interview bout 6, then i went to pasar malam bought myself a big pack of rendang nasi lemak, keropok lekok, sweet corn, soya bean & coconut drink! so a lot huh...u probably thinking how can a skinny gurl like can eat that much!hahaha~
i wonder myself sometimes....though everyone always say i'm skinny but actually i have lots of hidden fats! just that i wear suitable clothing to cover it up! dun believe? next time ask me to show u my hidden fats!
alright back to food, my housemate said keropok lepok are so gross that he wonder how can i put that thing into my mouth...is keropok lekok that gross??? i dun eat it often plus i like it alot... that's the only malay junk food that i like!!! do u guys think is gross??? i know the oil used to fried it is obviously not that heathly....but is the fish paste that gross??
seriously it makes me wonder...who invented all the unhealthy food?? like coke, fried stuff, greasy foods....human are indeed very weird! knowing the food is unhealthy for y still wanna eat it! no wonder older people are healthier that us..hahaha!! my grandpa always scold me whenever he sees me drinking cold drinks! he said the person that invented cold drink is a killer! hahaha!
to me,all these unhealthy food goes back to human basic attitude! laziness & ignorance...though i'm not the healthiest person around..somtimes i do take unheathly food but then not consistent...just watch a movie bout doctors... found out something useful...oily food can also cause diabetes....same goes with irregular eating habits....makes me wonder will i get diabetes? i have irregularities eating habits...hahaha...hopefully not!do take care guys...though we are young doesn't mean we dun have to take care of our health!

stupidity

some people are just so lost or shall i say stupid!i mean why on earth would u throw away something that is important and u know u need it?? why on earth would u wanna rely on other people with your own things??? i cant stand people like this like! so irresponsible!! is not like you weren't imformed bout it! u clearly know bout it and u know is important!! what the fuck u wanna delete it???
i seriously annoyed by such people! bugging me to help becoz they cant manage their own things! er..hello!! i'm not ur mommy! i don't take care of your dam life! manage things by yourself please! i have more than enough! i also got a life ,ok!? as if i dun have exams, projects & assignments! i'm not that free to babysitted you!
Is not that u are a young kid! 20 also coming liao lor! still expect people to assist u meh?! i see how u survive later! is a harsh world outside! cant u learn to manage your own part? really pathetic! simple things also need to ask me!

relaxing~

hey ppl,

i been blogging but haven't been sucessful in a few attempts..hopefully this 1 works!i'm very very very stress out these days!! final year for me diploma is like a never endly work year! i can never finish my work!! argh!!


therefore i was drop everything and gave myself a break! lit a candle,drop a bit of lavender essence into the container! a nice wonderful lavender smell floods my small room..ahhh..total relaxation! the spa mask my bf got for me is on my face and is the best nap i had for a long long time! i should do this more often! u guys should try it too!

i gtg now...lotsa letters to write & work to do~i'll blog again once i find anything more interesting to blog about~

stupid lecturer!!!

wat the hell wrong with her brains??how can u do 2 models every week for 3 weeks and spend the last week of the term doing for final model!!ok..fine..i deal sleepless nites!but now she said..no modelling boards for the final model..

SL:modelling board are too plain to be fitted into ur site model.

ME: then wat material can we use?

SL:use balsa wood, alumnium, glass or plastic lar..

ME:but the width of the building is bigger than the width of balsa wood(balsa wood only have a standard width)

SL: then cut two peices and join together!

ME:*thinking..wtf..balsa wood is so soft somore wanna join two pieces...where can withstand the weight!* can we use brown boards??(brown boards are big and hard though harder to cut)

SL: NO! it doesn't have the finishing touch!

ME:.....*thinking...nuts are u? is a model wat kind of finishing touch u wan?plus brown board are nicer in term of texture and colour than balsa wood!!somore balsa wood fucking expensive,1 meter x 10cm is like 8 bucks!!!the fucking model is 3 flooor and each floor is bout 50x12 cm! imagine how much money i have to spend?? haven't plus wall,column,window,door etc etc...she think everyone so rich meh?? just becoz i'm in taylor's doesn't make me rich till i can waste my money like this!!

Cheerleading!~

i always loves cheerleading ever since i was in form 4! Currently i'm in Aegles, coolest team i ever been in! Evan though the coach is very strict but is really cool when ur team has more guys than girls!!!Beside that is the only college cheerleading team!! Taurens was 1st! lol~

finally is over~

finally gone to all my exams! though PPP is a bit sucky...practically everyone cheated. hahaha~i totally cant wait for my holidays to start! jUst 1 more assignment to go then i can relax for a week!!that fellow..haihz...left so early i wonder if he did well or dunno how to do...sometimes i seriously pity him, stressful studies somore have to work~i feel pity for him. but of coz being a guy ego runs wild!dun talk much bout difficulty instead act cool and carefree~my dear dear on the other is doing well! cares for me alot! came all the way from kl just to have dinner with me!dun let me go ATM when i'm broke and just give me money to use...i mean how many bf in the world would do that?compare to all my previous...is like sun and pluto~haha~when we argue, he pujuk me even is my fualt and if he's fault he'll buy me flower or gift~ arent' he sweet~ is not that i wanna brag bout him but he is such a wonderful bf that i must tell everyone how nice is he! lol...pathetic am i~perhaps the exam's stress drove me nuts~hahaha~i cant believe i'm graduating this year!ouch~i feel old~

can't sleep...

is 3.24 am. i still awake...been studying PPP since 9pm. My brain is feeling so tired...i wanna zzz...i dun understand y i even bother with PPP, is not like i'll being any tender document or procurement...argh~totally pissed off with the dam college...y are they making my life so dam diffcult?! oh..yea..btw, i'll be helping Jo to campaign! haha! i think she more capable than anyone else that was nominated~she just like cyn...so much similiarities...no wonder we click so well!being so busy makes me wanna give up on cheerleading... plus we can only do other ppls routines...y cant we cheorograph our own..is not like we are rushing for anything...i'm just gonna check out on the club list. if cheerleading is in i'm in if not i think i should retired from cheerleading...getting a bit the old and not as flexible as last time...haihz...sit on a chair for few hours also backache liao...i sound like a grandma, don't i??can't help it..thinking that i be graduating fr college this year seriously make me feel old...enuff with the old..i'm going back to my studies!