glasgow trip..

Woke up by the alarm at 5.15 am. Why to myself why did i get up so blooddy early? Then i remember that i'm going to Glasgow for a day shopping trip. Got on to the bus at 6.30 and went back to sleep.

Woke up when I reach Glasgow around 10 am. I love the Summer Sale! Everything is so cheap especially winter wear. I'm not going to spend any money for summer wear because i brought a whole of clothes from malaysia.

Love the columns, make me feel like i'm in Rome! haha~


Gigantic metal peacock! haha...


The glasgow trip gang!Roy's not in the picture because he took this photo..=P


Funny looking clock~!


My shopping spree! Love the boots! original price was 95 pound and i got it for 10 pound! So more is nine west! Best deal ever! I know i went to glasgow yesterday but i actually finish one of the book already! =P fast reader can't help it! 2 headband from Topshop for only 1 pound!!! The beanie chair is a bit pricey but is not a seasonal item so no bargain there...Got the candle because i love the holder. Only 95 pence! haha~!


That's all for now...Didn't took much nice picture...was too busy shopping! haha~

do i have a heart?

I haven't been blogging as often as i should. Mainly because i don't have anything great to blog about.Ok not even petty stuff to blog about.

I realised lately that i don't have a heart anymore. No longer have passion for things i do nor wanting to do something. I'm used to a busy life and now all the sudden i have nothing to do except go to work on the weekend or clean up the house. this life is getting to my nerves. How could a person like me to be confined in my flat and doing endless chores? It seems the house gets messy once i turn my back on it. I'm not a very particular person when it comes to cleaniness but somehow there's a limit and my flat always seems dirty!

Working doesn't have any appeal to me anymore, i don't earn enough to support myself. I have looking for another job. It feels like i'm growing old before i should. Worring about bills and grocery. I hate feeling like a housewife though i'm not marry! Not especially now when i'm in my golden age of 21. Somehow 21 doesn't golden to me at all. It has been a horrible year. And it's only halfway through.

Had my heart broken too many times that now i feel i'm immune to it. I'll be upset for a few days then my life is back to normal again. When my heart was first broken it took me 2 years to get back on track. I'm starting to be merciless and don't really gave a fuck to anything. More like a unreasonable stubborn bitch! Things have to be done my way because somehow i feel i know more than others of my age. And it is a fact i been through alot compare to my circle of friends. They don't what pain and horrible experience i been through. Even if they know how would they understand? Most of them have a easy life, perfect family.

What do they know about my messy family trees? What do they know how hard have i work to get to where i am now? They wouldn't understand how i con my ways to get educations. Or how many times i was at the verge of death? (if u are thinking i had thoughts of killing myself u are dead wrong!!!)

Partically no one understand me, well not totally. And u know why? Because i don't let them. Even if i did, i doubt there's anyone will understand. Ok maybe 1 or 2 person might. But i can't let them, through all these hard years i learn not to trust anyone fully. I trust my friends but not totally. I rather rely on myself than others. Everyone has their own problems. So over the years, my heart seems to harden and lately dissapear....

earrings~

Someone once asked me, how many pair of earrings do u actually have?

Guess what's my answer? I have no idea! And I seriously had no ideas. To those who know me well, understand my earrings crazy collection. To those that don't, I just love to collect earrings. Haha~

Anyway I was bloody free meaning nothing better else to do, I took out all my earrings and count. Mind you this is only mere half of my collection. Most of my earrings are back at home in Malaysia.








So now u know when u have no ideas of what to give me for my b'day, just get me earrings! Especially if they are butterfly shaped!!!

my new flat~!

Wendy been bugging me forever to photoblog my flat! I took the pictures last week but just can't be bother to upload them..hehe..=P

So i shall start with the entrance~ ok i'm mean!! the shoe rack wasn't enough for me and i had to put one of my shoe at beng's level..hehe


The hallway is actually a 'L' shape so can't really take the pic properly..=P


NO BENG'S ROOM PICTURE...HEHE..

So moving on is the bathroom! Nice and spacey! Can have party in there..haha~


This is the first thing u will see when u come into the living room...i know is messy but beng is doing his IBT. So clean up after that then...


This is taken from my laptop seat of the living room.


The nice view of my laptop seat window.


Ok..let have a look at the kitchen..is not that fantastic but is big enough~


Another look at the living before going to my room.


My room is very messy at the time when i took the photo coz i reach back from msia and was in the process of unpacking...It's much better now...I'm not that messy..hehe~


And at another angle~


That's all for now...hehe...

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edited part:
Sorry about the pictures sizes.. stupid photobucket had to resize some of the pictures...

And prove that my room is clean! muahaha~!


Special thanks to Joey for this>>>> I love it so much~!!! haha~


p.s.: i finally installed my stat counter after been blogging for more than a year..hehe

Point of no return

What would u do when u reach the point of no return?

regret the decision u make?

I probably would when I'm despair but after I cleared my mind, it was not a bad decision after all... Mistaken are to be learned and not forgotten. At least u see the true or should I say the dark side of it.

As the old say of mine goes, I WILL NEVER REGRET!

Stubborn? Maybe... Who knows?

back in aberdeen~

I got back in Aberdeen two days ago...Very exhausted...Mess up sleep pattern again...
Waking up fucking early in the morning...wanna sleep by 7 or 8 pm....

I HATE JET LAG

The whole house is a mess...i think i have to spend whole weekend to clean everything up..I'm so bloody lazy, being sick doesn't much..I don't get it... Can people live with so much mess and i know i'm not the neatiest person on earth. My room is even worse...So many things! Can hardly walk, filled up with 3 persons things! hahaha~
p.s.Wendy: I wanna charge you!!! :p

Being back here make me miss everyone at home so much~ sob sob... Do you guys miss?

trust...

Lately i have this problem with trust... I cannot trust others anymore... growing very paranoid... So paranoid sometime i wonder why can't i trust someone... Always worry that i'll get hurt..

Maybe with past bad experience with guys... My heart got broken too many times...

Don't break my heart is already as fragile as it could be... Scar is always there

What is love?

My friend Ken wrote this poem for his gf who is now his ex and I thought it was really sweet. I have this thing about guy being able to write poem, can hardly find a true sentimental guy nowadays. But mainly because I'm lousy at writing poems.

Forever Love

How can I know so surely that I'll love you
No matter what the future has in store
Time is like a cave in which our torches
Show only the circumference of our minds
Love is will far more than it is passion
One chooses love the way one chooses faith
Because that is the way that heaven lies
My love for you is vaster than the ocean
More rich in loveliness than coral seas
I could not relinquish willingly my love
After 9 months of unabated love
Do I recall my former life alone?
Abysses open, no matter where I move
My love for you is now my only home
I've found my one and chosen not to move
In doing so, I gave myself a picture
More beautiful than any I might draw
More potent than the most persuasive lecture
With far more force than any rule or law

Really sweet don't you think? It got published which proved he's really good! haha...I wish I can write poem like him!

Anyway I'm going back to Aberdeen tomorrow....Dreading my days...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M SO FUCKING PISS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IN EXTREME BAD MOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO BAD THAT I CRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cheer 2006~!

It has been a hectic weekend for me. Getting up very early in the morning and drive to Stadium Putra to support my secondary school cheerleading team! Yesterday was fantastic especially when they annouced Valkyries is in TOP 15! I was jumping up and down!!!
I been back to school a few times to see how they were doing.. And this video of their routine performed in school on friday!




All my girls and i'm very proud of them!!!


Shannon and me! Very proud with her for leading the team so well, both year of captaining the team and got into TOP 15 on both year!


The rest of the girls! Keep up the good work~!






Faisal and me! Miss all those time when we were pratising together! And also very proud of him for doing so well in United States cheerleading competition!


Well a new campion this year! the Titan from AMC which is expected as they hired a coach from RANGSIT Thailand. Hui San would be happy to hear her school won!
And a great performance by Daniel Lee, Malaysian Idol! I prefer Jaclyn Victor though! haha!!!


I'll post more pictures as soon as i get them!

Bangkok trip~

I have to wake up early on Sunday morning...It's near impossible for me!
I got up eventually and went to my secondary school's canteen day. Then rush back in the afternoon because I gotta catch my flight to Bangkok in the evening.

DAY 1
I reached Bangkok around 6pm. Later in the evening, my stepdad brought me and my mum to a Seafood restaurant. The restaurant is really different. You have to shop for your own seafood and vegetables. Later u can choose the method of cooking and then pay for them before you get to seat down. Good exercise before you eat! Did I mention the restaurant is enormous? To prove it, just look at the cooks!!


Here comes the food, yummy crab, shellfish, scallop and fish!



There was a bird nest perching on top of my table....Cute??

I like the restaurant's layout...Didn't manage to get all..Is too big!!!


DAY 2
My stepdad went off to work, so just me and mum. We went to the Grand Palace. The palace was indeed grand and huge!!
This is the first thing i saw when coming through the entrance!The guardian of the temple of the Emerald Buddha!Well u can't really see it but is in the two small terrace on both side.


There's 12 pairs of these demon heaven guardian at different entrance.


Then,the Phra Siratana Chedi fully covered in golden ceramic. If i'm not mistaken the royalty family ashes in there..


Golden Guardians of Phra Mondop.


Another look at the Chendi and Phra Mondop,also part of the Angkor Wat model


Half human and deer statue in front of the Prasat Phra Dhepbidorn( The Royal Pantheon)


I'm not sure what's those little guardian carrying the chendi called but i like them!


Making myself smarter! haha...my mum told me is water of blessing from the lotus and by knocking it a few times on my head, I'll be smarter! hehe~


The Emerald Buddha high on golden throne!


For some reason i don't like the mixed of architecture of Chakri Maha Prasat Hall. But the roof is still amazing!


I still like the original, Dusit Maha Prasat Hall!(The exhibition of the royal throne, bed and offering of Golden Money Tree)



Last look of the palace before i left.


After lunch i wasn't feeling too well, my worse nightmare happened.. My allergy reactions! Must be the damn seafood i had was from polluted waters! Started puking by the time i got back to the hotel. =(

Day 3
I'm sick. Stupid hotel doctor charge me 3000 Baht for a few pills!

Day 4
I'm still sick!

Day 5
Feeling better and my mum brought me to the Floating Market! My boat number was K 8. My lucky number! hehe~


Strong grandma! She was very fast and we brought some pink water guavas from her!


Shops along the rivers. My eyes was really busy!


See what i mean! really busy!


I got a really nice pair of sandal for a vendor that look like Jacky Chan! But this picture,he smile too wide! i suppose he's too happy ripping 400 Baht for 2 pairs of sandal. Money suckers!


Self taken photo, a bit blur coz the boat was moving too fast!


It started raining and others was carrying umbrella but lucky me my boat have roof! haha!


Is amazing they can cook on their little boat!


Even BBQ!


I really like the lamps but my mum refuse to buy me 1 because i brought a seashell table lamp in Phuket...Ooo well...


We didn't shop for long...had to rush back to the hotel. My flight home is in a few hours...

The plane i'm taking...


Bye bye Bangkok!