clever or dumb gf?

I was just talking to my bf the other days about how guys would like their gf to be. Alot of guys like pretty yet not so smart looking gf next to them. Guys always need the boast of ego so that they feel confidence to show off their gf. He was talking to his friends and they were talking about girls. One of the comment was would they mind if their gf/wife is a career woman. Then all fingers pointed at my bf. Apparently all of them thinks i'm a smart,career woman type. Luckily my bf is not one of those guys who mind if their gf is smarter than him. Not than i'm smarter than my bf, he's actually quite smart(seriously). It just that i appear looking smarter.

I admit i set high expectation for myself, i doubt i would be content staying at home and be a housewife.. All the education wasted on me. But also i cannot survive with the full time job stress at the same time. I'm kinda in a position which i'm doubtful of what i wanna do but that not an issue now.

I get really piss when a guy say he prefer a gf is not smarter than his or as long as she knows her place and appear to be dumb. Arghhh!!! Girls and guys has the same size of brain. Is not that some girl are smart some are dumb. The matter is whether how u use or not use your brain at all. I know all these scientist who discover that or this are MEN but it was because of the culture back then. Women are not allowed to be educated. BLurrr!!!

EGO!

I can't stand a girl who also pretend to be dumb so her bf would keep her. I mean what's the point? He should love a girl as who she is and not what she pretend to be.

Hopeless!

So go bloody find someone who will appreciate u as who u are, smart or dumb whatever it is. And as for guys... If u can't have your gf smarter than u then make yourself smarter instead of complaining that your gf is smarter than as if it is a weakness or bad point! Is not her problem, is your problem~!

long overdue post!

Chinese new Year!!

I know is long over, i should have blog about it ages ago...But as usual, i got lazy! =P

First Day of Chinese New Year!
We dine at Sam's~! I know.. why eat at the place i work at.. but Sam's serve the best chinese food in Aberdeen and its CNY
of coz must eat very good chinse food! So me, wendy, Maxine,


Jaya, Da Juinn, Chen soon(Uncle),


Joni,


Viknesh,


Suresh and Chong(Dun have their pic) went makan makan! hehe!

Fourth Day of CNY!
Makan makan again! This time at my house. Steamboat! Yay! Potluck style, thank you everyone for bringing so much food and Viknesh's curry is yummy!!

Welcome welcome! outside very cold o~!


HUh? i'm cooking la..don't want to take pic!


Taking a break and pose for pic with Tik Kai..My apron make me look like housewife~! LOL


Pic everyone! no one pose...everyone too busy eating!


hmmm...try again.. haih...still no one..sad la..


Eileen can't wait to eat... Food not yet cook la!


What u do to Jason,JO???


My two best buddies~!!

DND & 潔西卡

Semisonic, DND.
Tabbed by Martin Ford, arkseyfords@lineone.com.

DND – Semisonic
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Tabbed by Martin Ford
A simplified version, to get rhythm listen to C.D, a good song to practise with.
Verse/Chorus: E A D A
DND Now they'll leave us alone
DND Now you turn off the phone
How like you to make the whole world disappear and
How like you to make everything seem so clear and
How like you to make me want to stay forever
Here behind your door
DND Hang the sign on the door
DND Don't disturb us no more
How like you to make your love my hideaway and
How like you to make my troubles slide away and
How like you to make me want to play forever
Here behind your door
Bridge: Bm G D A D A
Bm G D A E
Minute I got some space and time I
Wanted to get me back in the crowd
Minute I got some peace you found me
Trying to make my way to the loud
What a clown...
DND Leave the hotel at noon
DND Will I see you soon?
How like you to make the whole world disappear and
How like you to make everything seem so clear and
How like you to make me want to stay forever
Here behind your door
DND DND
DND
Now they'll leave us alone


I'm wendy's now.. And uncle keeps playing and singing this song.. Is really getting into my head..and also this song that Caleb sent me ages ago..Title JESSICA aka 潔西卡 by Tank, listen to the lyrics properly. It so me back then...LOL

Curse...

I am cursed. Damn it!

i have totally no idea why am i feeling down. really down. Whenever i see her name, i go nuts. What am i suppose to do? I can't control anything. I can't stop her from contacting him. I can't stop him from being 'friends' with her. I can't make him understand how much it hurts me even have her name mention or see the things that she gave to him. I can't control my own feelings. Even he reassure me over and over again. 'Spana' she really is. He don't see it that way.

It took a huge chuck of me to forgive him and to start all over again. He don't understand how much. So much.. so so much. How i wish he understand how i feel. how she gives me nightmare. how i don't want our relationship to be wretched by her. why can't i stop having nightmares, is like a spell she cast on our relationship. I'm so tired, tired of fighting, fighting my own instinct. How i wish my instinct could be wrong, but is never wrong.

I love him so dearly, i don't want to be a possessive gf. I was never one yet slowly turning into one. I wish she would just disappear from our life. I hate myself for feeling this way. She like a wrath, clenching her claws on any guys who have a gf. Wrenching them apart is her hobby. Envious of other because she can't have it with her own bf. How can i fight such evil? I'm just a normal being.

I start to wonder, is there a problem with me? Is it wrong for me to feel this way? She scare the hell outta my wits. I cannot bear it for much longer. I'm at my limit. I know I'm capable of doing terrible things. Any human can. I don't want to resort to that,stomping as low as she. She is not worthy of my time.

Forget, forget, forget. Let him reassure me. That's all i can do right now. The day she will manage to wretch my relationship apart is the day i die.

Over my dead body.

get out of my life!!!

I meant! Fuck off!

Seriously go get yourself another life!
Better still, go find another hobby,
Wretching others relationship very fun meh?

He's my life.
Fuck off from my life!

i need a placement!!!

I have applied, no replies...
I'm desperated now!
End of march is my dead line!
If I can't get a placement by then i'm going home.
Definately can get a job back home.
But i wanna stay here.

Someone please help me?

Yida and my bb alike?

My cousin say that Chris and Yida(Singapore artist)looks alike! Do they?

2 years

It has been 2 years ever since i started blogging. Blogging really make me feel better.. Expressing whatever or however i felt at that moment that i just need to burst out. Reading back my previous blog, i realise i have change alot especially the past year i'm in UK. Alot of things happened as well. My 21 is definately not boring but i have to say is not a good year yet not too bad. Atleast i learn alot..

LOL

I just change my status for a week...Just a week.. and my profile got view so many times..I think this month was on of my highest hit! lol... so bloody funny!